Childhood Imagination Sows Seeds of Future Brilliance
Susie Bertie has long been a special friend to me. She is a delightful person putting me in mind of a light quixotic flash of brilliance that comes and leaves a special touch of sparkle. And she can write. She moves words around as though they were scents or mysteries. Welcome back Susie to Plum Tree Books. And thank you for sharing your passion about Derrick Brown.
Whenever Niamh Clune asks me for a piece; whether for an event, a publication, or for The Plum Tree, I become thrilled and equally terrified. Thrilled because she sets the bar high, and constantly challenges me to explore some darkened corner, or fold in the fabric of experience. Terrified because, well, that is my nature. It is human, easy to fall into comparisons with others in this Corner, to feel a bit ‘less than’. Too much the outlier. But Niamh knows me well enough to know I ultimately won’t give a hoot. I’ll step up. Engage. Stretch a bit.
I confess to visiting my previous Wednesday Poetry Corner, to see what nonsense I explored then and honestly, the nonsense still applies. Poetry is my inner-construct – how I move through my minutes, how I interpret what lies in the spaces between. Poetry, for me, is the rising need to define not only the edges, but the common white spaces that make up our human narrative –the bursts of the glorious, the lament of the sorrowful, the thread that invokes the sacred. Without poets, without poetry and the fluidity of thought and word … we become hollow, existence meaningless.
So, I want to talk today about Derrick Brown. He is a storytelling force, a passionate phrase-smith, and a mighty influence in the American poetry movement. You can read at your leisure here: http://www.brownpoetry.com/
And it is often this piece of his, that reminds me of my compass point:
A finger, two dots, then me
Lying together in the park on Seventh,
our backs smoosh grass and I say
I will love you till I become a child again,
when feeding me and bathing me is no longer romantic,
but rather necessary.
I will love you till there is no till.
Till I die.
And when that electroencephalogram shuts down, baby
that’s when the real lovin’ kicks in.
Forgive me for sounding selfish
but I won’t be able to wait under the earth for you
(albeit a romantic thought for groundhogs,
gophers and the gooey worms).
I will not be able to wait for you…
but I will meet up with you
and here’s where you will find me:
get a pen–
Hold your finger up
(two fingers if your hands are frail by now)
and count two stars directly to the left
of the North American moon.
You will find me there.
You will find me darting behind amazing quasars
Behind flirtatious winks
of bright and blasting boom stars!
Sometimes charging so far into space
the darkness goes blue.
I will be there chasing sound waves
riding them like two-dollar pony ride horses
that have finally broken free and wild.
I will be facing backwards, lying sideways,
no hands, sidesaddle, sometimes standing
sometimes screaming zip zang zowie!
My God, it’s good to be back in space… Where is everybody?
You will recognize my voice.
You will see the flash of a fire trail
burning off the back of me
burning like a gasoline comet kerosene sapphire.
This is my voice.
Don’t look for my body or a ghost.
I’ll resemble more a pilot light than a man now.
I’m sure some will see
this cobalt star white light from earth
and cast me a wish like a wonder bomb.
And I’ll think “Hmmph. people still do that?”
I’m sure I’ll take the light wonder bombs
to the point in the universe
where sound does end.
The back porch of God’s summer home.
It’s so quiet here, you float.
It feels the way cotton candy tastes.
I say to him… why do I call you God?
He says ‘Because Grand Poobah sounds ridiculous.’
(Who knew he was so witty?)
I ask him ‘Lord, so many poets have tried to nail it and missed, what is holy?’
At that moment,
the planets begin to spin and awaken
and large movie screens appear on Mars, Saturn and Venus
each bearing images I have witnessed
and over each and every clip flashes the word holy.
snowballs upside the head–holy
clumsy first kisses–holy
sneaking into movies–holy
your mother teaching you to slow dance
the fear returning
the fear overcome–holy
eating top ramen on upside-down frisbees
cause it was either plates or more beer–holy
drunk beach cruiser nights–holy
the $5.00 you made in vegas
and the $450.00 you lost–holy
the last time you were nervous holding hands–holy
feeling God at a pool hall but not church–holy
sleeping during your uncle’s memorized dinner prayer–holy
losing your watch in the waves and all that signifies–holy
the day you got to really speak to your father cause the television broke–holy
the day your grandmother told you something meaningful
cause she was dying–holy
in the stars
is the same
in our hearts
in the stars
is the same
in our hearts
in the rebuilt machinery of our hearts
So love, you should know what to look for
and exactly where to go…
Take your time and don’t worry about getting lost.
You’ll find me.
Up there, a finger and two dots away.
If you’re wondering if I’ll still be able to hold you
…I honestly don’t know
But I do know that I could still fall for
a swish of light that comes barreling
and cascading towards me.
It will resemble your sweet definite hands.
The universe will bend.
The planets will bow.
And I will say “Oh, there you are. I been waitin’ for ya. Now we can go.”
And the two pilot lights go zoooooooom
into the black construction paper night
as somewhere else
two other lovers lie down on their backs and say
“What the hell was that?”
-Derrick Brown, Beat Poet