In this week’s “In The Sandbox,” Dr. Koshy introduces a theme which I am sure many of us poets are familiar with: Depression and Suicide. For some of us, those moments when the soul is in despair are the richest in terms of inspiration…
By Ampat Koshy
Sometimes in life one is depressed beyond measure. This may come from either having messed up one’s own life or having messed up the lives of others also. Whichever the cause, and by the way the ones I have stated are only two of many such causes for depression, reading poetry in such times or writing it consoles us.
What they read in such instances varies from person to person but I turn to very dark gloomy poetry from Grecian or Roman times, the poetry of people like Sextus Propertius or Ovid or Sappho, or Malayalam poetry sometimes, that is; poetry in my mother tongue or by someone from my home state in Kerala who writes in English. Today I remember two poets in this context, Balachandran Chullikad who writes beautiful lyrics and K Satchindanandan. Satchindanandan once said that insanity was his muse in Atta Galatta, an interesting bookstore in Bangalore. Satchidanandan has also been nominated for the Nobel Prize.
I quote a poem of his that strangely enough buoys me up.
I CAN TALK TO THE DEAD
I can talk to the dead:
dead men, trees, rivers.
Sometimes I see my ancestors:
My granny flies on proverbs,
my grandpa crosses rivers on riddles.
Some swing on quartrains and couplets,
some ride chessmen.
Some play in circles, ploughing fields,
some pluck the betel leaves of heaven.
Sometimes I come across my dead friends.
They have not changed much; only
their bodies have turned into glass.
We can see their hearts inside.
No, they have not stopped, they beat
faster than our hearts.
They cry in the voice of drizzles and
laugh softly like falling leaves.
they are not very different from us,
the so-called living; only sometimes
they choose to fly. Their desires, anxieties,
disappointments: everything is like our own.
Death is not the end of doubts;
questions still haunt them.
But they lost their language long ago.
Their sun rises like a skull in the east.
Mushrooms grow on their foreheads.
When I am talking to myself,
I am really talking to the dead.
When I am talking to you too.
Sun has set in our language.
1988
( Translated from the Malayalam by the poet )
Why I like this poem is because of its dirge like and elegiac atmosphere whereby it lays our hopes about what happens in the afterlife to rest, showing it as a continuation that is not better or worse, only different. The last stanza especially captures my attention as a lament for the death of indigenous languages, language, poetry and for – to end up where I started out – oneself in not being able to become better or for not being able to stop hurting others which accounts for the notion that we are already dead, you and I.
For those who want to read more of and about K Satchidanandan you can on his site which is also where I took this poem from – “http://www..com/picantalktothedead.html” and for those interested in Balachandran Chullikad, another beautiful Malayalam poet, you can look up his poems here – “http://www.kritya.in/0511/En/poetry_at_our_time5.html”
And today’s challenge? Why not try writing a poem with the title I Can Talk to the Dead in the comments box, dear friends?
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Thank you for the reblog!
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I can talk to the dead
But what do I say
They kill me–my soul mates
in every birth we take
Behind a blinking eyelash fence
my nights gather in earnest
talking of a sun that failed to rise
Life roams with a poison pitcher
a new one everyday
They hold out cups, the stronger ones
I cradle mine and weep
We laugh under the anonymity of neon eyes
I am too scared to venture into their day
There some winged friends crash and die
Their scars and bloodstains willed to me
and in the ditches, some dreams too
The spirits of each gather around a bonfire
burning shells and verses everyday
I hide my dead within my soul
where nothing survives too long
I know too much to live a farce
They know I am dead to all alive
-Reena
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Brilliant Reena.
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Powerful. I like Dr. Koshy’s comments as they add so much more to the poem he shared.
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Thanks Butterflies and honestly I don’t know which one I like better yours or Satchidanandan’s now. Just for that single comment this post has been worth it.
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Ampat Sir.. That means so much to me Thank you.. This has set off an avanlanche of responses.. I am so glad to read all the different ones
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Thanks to all who tweeted, facebooked, google plussed, liked, linked in-ed and pinterested.- lots of love
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linked in-ed. 🙂
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I can talk to the dead
As they talk back to me,
They know how to listen
In rapt attention
As no one listens
to their stories.
I can feel the dead talking,
Whispering, singing,
Songs of life, sometimes of death
Songs of longing, things unsaid.
I don’t need to die to talk to them,
They bless me with this special ear,
Which lets me hear
their stories,
From spaces, no one can ever veer
This is a one way street, lonely
Once the dead allow you to talk
You are at their mercy.
No matter how much you try to
Stop listening
To stories of dying of agony
They will not let you go
As so few,
Are privileged
To hear their living memories.
I fear not death anymore
And that is the bliss
The dead have blessed me with
As I know once I am dead
I still will be able to tell
My stories to ones who are interested.
One of them may be,
Just may be a poet,
Who will then write,
My unwritten verses, scribbles and poetry.
I may be dead then,
But my poetry will continue
To traverse this world of the living dead’s.
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Thanks @Patricia Tilton
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I can talk to the dead
they walk in and out of me
my rooms that holds their secrets
the secrets that cling on to me.
I can talk to the dead
I need not have any fear
they can chuckle or snarl
it means not much to me.
I can talk to the dead
they cannot talk to me
and their endless paleness
bores me plain to death…..
::))))
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Wow! Mary. Really interesting perspective. How their endless paleness bores you to death!
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The dead won’t talk to me
I closed my ears, long ago
when I grew sick of hearing them
screeching through the wind
whining into my consciousness
flitting through time’s closed doors
searching for echoes
of wasted love,
or murdered destiny
Why cling to a world
that withholds
warmth of flesh?
Why beseech ~
cry for mercy?
The rattle and hum
of the clothed, fed and loved
care not
hear not
see not
No more than I am heard or seen
~ a ghost myself
belonging neither to this world
or the next
Niamh Clune 2013
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Wow Niamh! the closure is brilliant.. it lingers on and on
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It may not be what you had in mind (and again I remind you, I’m not a poet), but I made an effort and posted it on my blog. Thanks for the challenge!
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Radha Debroy Raai’s response to my challenge:
I can talk to the dead
As they talk back to me,
They know how to listen
In rapt attention
As no one listens
to their stories.
I can feel the dead talking,
Whispering, singing,
Songs of life, sometimes of death
Songs of longing, things unsaid.
I don’t need to die to talk to them,
They bless me with this special ear,
Which lets me hear
their stories,
From spaces, no one can ever veer
This is a one way street, lonely
Once the dead allow you to talk
You are at their mercy.
No matter how much you try to
Stop listening
To stories of dying, of agony
They will not let you go
As so few,
Are privileged
To hear their living memories.
I fear not death anymore
And that is the bliss
The dead have blessed me with
As I know once I am dead
I still will be able to tell
My stories to ones who are interested.
One of them may be,
Just may be a poet,
Who will then write,
My unwritten verses, scribbles and poetries.
I may be dead then,
But my poetry will continue
To traverse this world of the living dead.
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Thanks to Niamh, Mary, Marta. Radha and Alan for amazing responses
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“I can talk to the Dead.”
by Koshy A.V.
I can talk to the dead*
Like my non-verbal son they tell no lies
do not spread rumours
or backbite behind one’s back
untruthful things about one
carry no daggers to stab you with from behind
they rejoice or mourn only about themselves
jealousy, mistrust and suspicion have left them, I like to think
tell you no lies about yourself to your face
are quite quiet
except for the sound of their bubbling souls
that make them like witches’ potions
or like good, strong, green tea.
Title from a poem by K Satchindanandan.
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Poetry Challenge: “I Can Talk To The Dead”
Those of you who work with me know that I talk to my deceased patients. They don’t respond but it makes me feel better.
Death Calls
©2013 Anita Travis White, RN
my beautiful lady
death comes not so easy
three days imminent
clogged with apneic deception
you relinquished your final breath
rendering freeing silence
spoken words are now mute
only your cat hears my mumbling
we had a good connection you and I
Tuesdays and Fridays at two,
bath at four, Morphine at six and ten.
details of your affliction jotted in my nurse notes
I prepare you for your final transport
ticktock of your old timekeeper
collides with the sound of the knock at the door.
I’ll see you on the other side.
by Anita Travis White
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Enjoyed reading all that:) Niamh Clune t y too:)
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Beautiful words that sum up my simple belief … the earthly being may be gone but the spirit remains with us forever.
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Many thanks for the visit, Patricia!
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Thanks @Patricia Sands 🙂
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Splendid article and loved the series of poems that followed!
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Many thanks dear Zeenath for your visit and your comment!
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thanks @zeenath
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